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[Jul. 23rd, 2008|02:01 pm] |
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Haha, some kid with a knife got tazed to death yesterday. ;D |
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| Leaving for work =[ |
[Jul. 23rd, 2008|02:52 pm] |
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| | Chevelle - I get it | ] |
So, im on a liquid fast until at LEAST friday.
I could really use a text buddy! Im from North Carolina (in the U.S)
And I have verizon!
Maybe someone around my stats, 5'5 120-125ish.
Just message me or something?
Anyway, I'm a cashier at a grocery store.
Which I might ad, is fucking retarded, im surrounded by food for eight hours a day, five days a week. It's hard to not think about food ya know?
Ugh, Wish me luck girlies! |
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| Rain Barrels? |
[Jul. 23rd, 2008|01:14 pm] |
I'm looking to buy a rain barrel, but I can't find anything suitable that isn't ridiculously expensive or sold at a specialty store.
So...does anyone know where I could get a cheap, covered plastic drum to convert in to a rain barrel? It doesn't even need a tap, I can put that on myself, but I'd rather not shell out big bucks for something I might be able to find in a garbage bin.
[Hell...I guess I could just use a garbage bin...] |
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| oh my calorie count |
[Jul. 23rd, 2008|01:56 pm] |
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well i way 97 pounds now...so i have passed 98. I'm proud. OK and I'm not in as much pain today which is good calorie intake for the 7 day cycle=2022 not bad at all
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| Posting For A Friend |
[Jul. 23rd, 2008|11:53 am] |
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A friend is looking for someone local who does website design +hosting I guess. She's currently without web access and I don't have time to search for her. She needs design +hosting but wants to administer the site herself if any of that helps. Suggestions? |
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| what happened today |
[Jul. 23rd, 2008|06:08 pm] |
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my ex came (he is still here) to Paris and surprised me! yeah you heard right MY EX BF!
I was like 'wtf are you doing here?' (im not a bitch, I was just shocked)
and get this; the first thing he says to me after he hugs me is 'omg! I can feel your bones.
don't tell me your anorexia is back?' geeez wtf is wrong with him?if it wasn't for his beautiful green eyes and his georgeus face (he is so hot its almost sick I swear)
I would have deff kicked him out for that comment. (still, im not a bitch, even tho it sounds like it)
the thing is; I broke up with him him because of my ed (and also because I never really felt good enough for him)it just makes me mad cos I have really tryed to get over him and with him coming back its not happening. he said he missed me like crazy. I think he wants to get back together.
what should I do??
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| Address? |
[Jul. 23rd, 2008|10:10 am] |
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Anyone know what the address is of the MTS Call center on osborne? |
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[Jul. 23rd, 2008|08:17 pm] |
Today i just felt... down. Resigned to the fact that there was NO WAY i could fast without being noticed.
I did pretty well, all things considered. Half a small banana, a couple bites of lasagna and some salad. Tea coming up, then bed.
I jsut realised that in the last 6 days i've lost about 3kg... that's over 6lbs... closer to 7, even.
And i haven't fasted.
at all.
I mean i never expect progress like that unless i'm fasting flat out. But wow. I'm surprised... and paranoid that my scales might be wrong.
Has anyone else lost more, faster, when eating small amounts than when fasting. I find it easier (and more satisfying) to fast, but if this works better then... well... re-evaluation time? |
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[Jul. 23rd, 2008|02:46 am] |
For the last few days i've kind of been having this chest pain. At first I thought it was related to anxiety, but it wouldn't go away after I tried my anxiety med. And it's been getting a little worse. I'm not exactly freaking out, and i'm starting to think that it could be related from purging? I've been out a lot lately and therefore... purging a lot of horrid food from restaurants. And then there was that 2 day chocolate binge... ew. Gotta love that time of the month!
Has that happened to anyone? A kind of aching chest pain, right side-ish into the boob area, and hurts when you lift things or do anything too strenuous?
I want to kind of figure this out... because if it keeps up I may go see the doctor tomorrow. I just REALLY don't want to say anything if it's related to my ED, I'm hoping it's from anxiety (even though i'm not having any mental symptoms), or something else. (Oh that's horrible, lol).
Let me know, please!
Thank you ladies... you are my rock! :-D
Stay strong. <3
-B. |
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| Eating Disorders Lecture |
[Jul. 22nd, 2008|09:16 pm] |
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Hello, all! Sorry, it's a second post!
My boss teaches abnormal psychology, but year after year, he skips the chapter on eating disorders. I am going to write to him in a few weeks encouraging him to consider adding the eating disorders to his course since they are fairly prominent in college populations and because there are many myths floating around about them. If anyone would let me quote them in my letter, I feel I could make a stronger argument, since I am trying to emphasize the lack of understanding the average person has about the disorders. (I mean things you've encountered.) If anyone is interested in contributing to my mini-crusade, I would love it if you could answer any of these questions or offer any other remarks as to why it should be part of an abnormal psychology course!
1) What sort of misunderstandings have you personally encountered with regards to your eating disorder or EDs in general?
2) What do you wish people better understood about the eating disorders?
3) What kind of reactions have you received from others about your eating disorder that were entirely unhelpful?
4) The eating disorders are often misconstrued as actions of vanity. What are your thoughts on this? What do you feel contributed to your disorder?
Their textbook neglects the strong biological influences and minimizes the physical detriments associated with EDs, so those are points I intend to make. All contributions are welcome and I would be grateful to have permission to quote you! |
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| Bulimia/Mia and Anorexia/Ana: My Respectful Opinion |
[Jul. 22nd, 2008|07:42 pm] |
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I noticed more controversy over eating disorder names again. This seems to be a recurrent conflict, so I am going to weigh in, respectfully.
Some people call the disorders "ana" or "mia" deliberately, as some sort of indication that the behavioral patterns are their "friends." Others do it because it sounds less clinical than "anorexia nervosa" and "bulimia nervosa." Still others call them these nicknames feeling that they're just abbreviations, simply synonymous. Does this make you a "wannarexic?" Does this mean you're some sort of idiot for possibly "loving" your maladaptive practices? I don't believe so. Keep in mind that people with eating disorders go through different stages. Most, if not all, who have experienced one of the eating disorders have gone through a period during which they loved their behaviors, seeing them as a source of freedom, as relief from stresses and sadness. They were comforting. They embraced them. Personifying the disorder does not make one an "idiot" or a "pretender." It makes them someone going through a different stage of AN or BN.
Please keep in mind that regardless of whether or not you feel someone is an idiot, a faker, or a wannarexic, they are probably here because they have some form of psychological dysfunction. So please do your best to be respectful, if not kind. If you feel someone is unkind to you, perhaps it is best to ignore them. Please keep in mind that sites like these are going to be filled with individuals experiencing psychological dysfunction, so you may often encounter unkindnesses that are not reflective of how deserving you are of them. The Internet is full of different people, some of whom may be less than sweet. Try to acknowledge this and turn away from comments that are hurtful.
Those are my thoughts. I take no sides on the issue. If you call them "ana" or "mia," I don't mind. If you're offended by the terms, I understand. But respectfulness from either side would be nice, wouldn't it?
Happy posting and good wishes to everyone. =) |
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[Jul. 22nd, 2008|10:50 pm] |
today i ate about 700 cals on my 500-800 cal day.
did not exercise, and probably wont tomorrow either because i have this big online project i have to do thats due tomorrow. but well see if i have time, hopefully i do, and i would rather exercise outside for like 2 hours and run.
i am the biggest laxative junky ever. i am addicted to laxatives and its so bad but i cant seem to stop. uhg. its helps me but i know its really bad.
what are the causes of laxatives btw? does it effect the liver or what?
ill post soon on how im doing....my goal is to weigh by tuesday 132-133.
stats:
height- 5"0"
cw- 135
hw-153
lw-118
gw1-128
gw2-125
long term- 85
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[Jul. 23rd, 2008|02:32 am] |
Birthday in 3 days.
my parents came to down to my apartment and asked me what i wanted to do. Throw a party, have guests for coffee (like my granmother) or go out to a fine restaurant with them.
I don't know why but all of a sudden i got extremely mad.
"GO out to fine restaurant?? What is so special about that?? Sitting in a hall with lots of people not doing anything but stuffing their faces.. What's so fucking special about that. Eating, not like it's a joy..."
My parents went, they said they didn't understand me anymore. I felt bad. So i went to the shop and bought some cigarettes. I was done with that but i was feeling so moody and bad so i just bought some...
I was listening to my record player Ella Fitzgerald. And the song Summerime with Louis Armstrong came up. I just started crying when i heard it. Don't know why, just felt like crying and played the song again and again so i'd cry more. It's sad how i actually like the feeling of being sad and depressed.
it's sarcastic.
I love my mom and she has such a great visdom.
,,You choose what you do in your life. If you want to do nothing tomorrow, just stare in the air simply don't do anything then. You've go this whole life in front of you and you choose what you do.
You don't have to go out running tomorrow at 8 in the morning. You don't have to do anything tomorrow."
I guess i'm just boed and lonely right now, I can't sleep. I don't want to sleep. i'm sorry, i bet noone reads this anyways. |
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| hey Winnipeg... |
[Jul. 22nd, 2008|08:25 pm] |
What is the name of the sushi restaurant in Osbourne Village, and do they do gift certificates?
If not, any recommendations for a nice/different restaurant in the downtown/St B/Osbourne area? |
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| Key Cutting |
[Jul. 22nd, 2008|08:17 pm] |
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Is it possible to get a key cut anywhere at night? It seems I've missed most places, and searching for key cutting on Google is the most useless thing ever. Thanks. |
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| Car Rentals |
[Jul. 22nd, 2008|06:27 pm] |
Since I don't have a car, I'm renting one this weekend for four days to go to an even that's out in St. Norbert. Enterprise will rent me one for four days for $88, which is half of what Avis would charge for three days. I've rented from Enterprise before and have had good experiences. Have you rented from any other places? What's the most affordable car rental place you've found? |
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[Jul. 22nd, 2008|09:07 pm] |
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people in the uk... do you know any over the counter diet pills that actually do something?
oh and also... do you know if they work on someone with a relatively low bmi? because i know some only work on people with a bmi over 25 or whatever. |
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| Congrats! |
[Jul. 22nd, 2008|12:32 pm] |
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Yesterday, we had a big feast and i am happy to say that i didnt even touch one morsel!
Yeah, i cooked but that didnt tempt me any further! Of course, no one cared.:]
I was so pissed off though because the moment "the guest" arrived,
they started talking about my sisters recent weight loss wondering if she was anorexic or stuff,
they didnt eve look at me! Just kept ranting about my sister.
That was what made me not eat.
On the better side, i have cram class in 2 hours and 25 minutes. (Its 12:35 pm right now!)
Im so glad because even though your supposed to bring a snack i just say i ate before i came.
Thats the best lie, i use it all the time.AND its 6 hours!!
But we do have a party on thursday and every type of junk food will be availabe.
Not to mention fast food. Ordered pizza's and chicken. Oh lord.
P.S YOU HAVE TO LISTEN TO THIS SONG! ITS SO THINSPIRING!
i believe once im thin enough, Some guy will say that to me.Fall For You - Secondhand Serenade |
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| Tree planting |
[Jul. 22nd, 2008|01:56 pm] |
I'd like to know if any of you have ever been tree planting in remote areas. If you have I'd love to hear all about your experiences. I understand that it's extremely difficult at times but still it's something I'm considering.
I've found some information from these sites already but I'd really like to talk to someone who's done it themselves.
http://www.outland.ca/planting/faqs/default.asp
http://www.dorseycontractinginc.com/tree_plant.html
Any information you folks have on the subject will be appreciated.
Thanks in advance! |
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| My eyes! |
[Jul. 22nd, 2008|01:56 pm] |
I'm looking for sugar eyes to put on cakes, like the image below. I need about 100. I called a couple of cake stores with no luck, and went to Michaels at Polo where the girl helping me was utterly confused by my request. Does anyone know where I might find such a thing? Thanks!
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