so I went to get some bloodwork done the other day, cause it had been awhile since I got things checked out.... and by the time I got home on friday, there was a message on the machine that told me to call the doctor on call....
something about getting a message to call a doctor on call, over the long weekend doesn't exactly make you feel particularly comforted when it comes to your health...

so I called. And they told me that (surprise, surprise) my hemoglobin is low, again. It is however, lower than it has maybe ever been. The doctor started to ask me if I was having any chest pain, or difficulty breathing, or if I was passing out at any point.... um... no.... but that doesn't sound too good. And instead of the usual reccomendation of 'take your iron pills stupid', apparently it's bad enough that they're reccomending a blood transfusion... huh....

so, I have an appointment with my nurse on tuesday, and the doc told me that if I started to feel lightheaded, dizzy, or started having chest pains, to go to the ER over the weekend, and get the transfusion then.

FUCK...

this is the first time any of the things Ive been 'at risk' for has actually happened to me...
Im kinda scared...